Phrases like "I love you" and "I care about you" are things I don't say quite often, unless I want to remind you, in case you forget. Because to me, these things are meant to be felt, not heard nor told. I don't have to tell you something you already know. You may confirm it if you are not quite sure of what I mean by the things I do, show, or make you feel.
But here's the thing...
You'll know that I love you if I pray for you and dedicate time for you despite my busy schedule.
You'll know you are important to me if I worry about you, despite having a lot going on in my life.
It means I care about you if I ask you how you've been and ask you random questions just to get to know you more.
It means I respect you, when I do not ask questions that are too personal, but instead, I wait for you to open up. I'll just listen. I won't judge you, but I'll let you hear my thoughts if you'd ask me. I want to be your safe space.
It means I support you when I try not to bother you despite missing you so bad. Because I want you to be happy doing the things you love, and I'll silently support you from afar, smiling, because I am proud of you.
I wish it is I who you end up with, but that's not what I pray for. I've learned to not be selfish by loving you. For in loving you, I always pray for you to be happy, that you get to find what it is that you are looking for and that you end up with a person who will love you with all her heart, whom you will love with all your heart as well.
I've never loved like this before.
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